A systematic return to anxious thought can be quite triggering and cause you to spiral. Often it will seem that it’s the situation that is the cause. In truth it’s a deeper unseen melody that’s playing in the background. Well beneath the surface of the accounts during your day lives a continuous strain on your inner feeling of freedom. Freedom to be as I am. Freedom to laugh and love without fear. Freedom to fail without judgement.
Who could hold such power over you? You may have a name or many. In truth there can be only one. Our own power captures our attention in the name of survival. A coping mechanism set in place by an innocent child is the foundation of our emotional wellbeing. What or who caused this survival reaction is completely irrelevant. Once the system of reaching for love and acceptance is in place, worthiness becomes conditional. The way out comes with an open mind that’s willing to let go of blame. Not just for others but for yourself as well. Innocents built this wall and innocents holds it in place.
Survival is the power that holds you captive. Your own protection holds you in the grip of tyranny. Who treats you most harshly with judgement? We are our own worst critic. Thinking that somehow I will become good enough or have enough to walk in the circle of acceptance. To finally feel at home, surrounded with kind eyes and loving hearts. Who could argue this? Is there any greater prize in life? Only one. When those kind eyes and loving heart, are your own. When you release your misguided judgement towards yourself, the world follows your lead. As in the blog; Reflections in time. The world can only reflect what you give yourself. ” As you see it, so shall you be it,” so the saying goes.
Trust that kindness towards yourself is well deserved. No matter what the mind says. Little steps, one by one. Lean into the feeling that freedom to be as you are, holds life’s greatest victory. The discovery that awaits will color your world with eternal beauty, from a heart set free…